眼泪终于掉了。。。

I know I'm slowly picking up the pieces and moving on, knowing how things between me and him are over...


I know how the tears that hasn't fell has been kept in storage somewhere, waiting for something in me to become completely heart-broken before the tears would come...





And in the wee hours of this morning, I finally cried...







I admit that there are times where I still do think of and about him, and I always have an emotional struggle within myself to be strong and smiley... And to keep moving on, and that i would become better in time... Yet tonight, alone in my room, tossing n turning in bed, the tears came like a torrential downpour...






I have no one to blame, it's just that people and feelings change... Sometimes, I would only have memories to keep hold onto, and for now, I am having flashbacks of the memories we had shared, remembering how he was able to tease me and make me laugh within a split second after making me cry, and how he held my hand tightly whenever I felt unhappy, and how his face would never fail to light up whenever I gave him a scalp massage... How he had an impish smile on his face when he wolfed down what was supposedly to be my supper from my hand after one of those drinking nights just because he didn't wanna wash his hands and I fed him both his and my share... How we would watch documentaries on National Geographic together during our weekends together, and how he and I curled up watching scary movies together... How he would mimic the way I spoke whenever I was irritated with him for wanting to irritate me... How I would go to zzz with smiles on my face, knowing that Love was around me and him... ...









I do know that one day these memories would be replaced by more memories in Life, yet, for now, I know that these memories still bring a whimsical smile onto my face...





I don't wish to see him, yet somewhere within me yearns to know if he's doing alright... The emotional struggles that I have to grapple with on a daily basis has been really really tough... Yet one day, I know, these are the memories and struggles that would make me become stronger... ...



But for now, all I can do is to look up at the skies, and pray that I would become better in time... ...







退后


“天空灰得像哭过，
离开你以后，
並沒有更自由。。。


酸酸的空氣，
嗅出我们的距离
一幕， 锥心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息。。。


抽屉泛黄的日记，
榨乾了回憶，
那笑容是夏季。。。


你我的过去，
被順時針的忘记，
缺氧过后的爱情，
粗心的眼泪是多余。。。



我知道你我都没有错，
只是忘了怎么退后，
信誓旦旦给了承诺，
却被时间扑了空。。。


我知道我们都没有错，
只是放手会比较好过。。。
最美的爱情回忆里待續。。。



天空灰得像哭过，
离开你以后，
並沒有更自由。。。


酸酸的空氣，
嗅出我们的距离
一幕， 锥心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息。。。


抽屉泛黄的日记，
榨乾了回憶，
那笑容是夏季。。。


你我的过去，
被順時針的忘记，
缺氧过后的爱情，
粗心的眼泪是多余。。。



我知道你我都没有错，
只是忘了怎么退后，
信誓旦旦给了承诺，
却被时间扑了空。。。

我知道我们都没有错，
只是放手会比较好过。。。
最美的爱情回忆里待續。。。 。。。”